Yesterday, while feeling totally cool, calm.......and also collected........while sitting in church, we started singing the closing song 'Come Come Ye Saints' (a hymn about Mormon pioneers and surviving the persecution they received at the time, like angry mobs, legalized killing of Mormons, losing children and loved ones in their trek westward to escape these things) and my throat closed up immediately and I started bawling. Waterfalls coming from my eyes. And I couldn't control it. A little bit embarrassing. But the worst part was that I wasn't thinking about the struggle of the pioneers but about that one time when I was 17 and went repelling with a church group and was terrified so I started singing the first hymn I could think of in my head to comfort myself and made my way down the mountain (more like a really big rock, but still). And this song popped in my head, the one with lyrics like and should we die before our journey's through, happy day, all is well. Not so much helpful. THATS what I was thinking about.