As for the name. Yes, I happen to have one of the most generic names in the world. I realize this. But as I have looked into marketing myself and craft, I have realized the importance of marketing MYSELF. It's been a journey getting to this point in my head an in my life. And this may come off as a bit abstract, disjointed, or way too introspective, but being here, where I am at this point, is somewhere I never thought I would be.
You see, I used to be terrified of showing my photography to anyone. Because it was something I cared about, even snapshots didn't merit sharing unless they were high caliber. Which they usually weren't because 1) I was too lazy to study/shoot for real and 2) I didn't want to evaluate my own work, my own inadequacy. I went back and forth on this. A lot. Which I wont bore you with, but within less than a year, I have gone from absolute terror to taking pleasure in following people with a camera, trying new things with new people, sharing my work, getting sincere compliments, and constructive criticism. Evolving in my own style in the scary digital world. Teaching myself the workings of photoshop (a painstaking and frightening feat for me, one that I am proud of) and continuing in that effort. Learning to embrace my own personal style and be inspired by others instead of ashamed that my work didn't look exactly like someone elses.
Mostly treating myself as a professional who knows what she is doing. Sometimes that's a farce seeing as my business sense is limited and I never want to stop learning in regards to the wide world of photography, but I am confident in what I can provide. And just nervous enough to keep myself motivated not to slack off. I recall quite some time ago, late at night, I believe, I was in the kitchen when we were living at the grandparents house in Henderson during their mission. Ryan was there watching some infomercial. And he asked me point blank what I was doing with my photography. I stuttered some "I don't know" trying to act nonchalant, but really was embarrassed as the topic made me so uncomfortable. The born sales man of a brother in law laid into me about treating myself as a professional, and charging like one. I've thought on that moment continually. It was a secret aspiration that I was embarrassed to admit because it seemed to lofty. Some 7-8 years later I feel as if I'm finally getting there. I'm a big believer in pivotal moments in your life. Nothing changes without them. The change might be gradual seeing as how we are stubborn humans and all, bit there is always a time and/or realization that sparks that. I think back on that moment as the one that got me to this point. Made me think that it was possible, despite how far away and foreign it seemed at the moment.
I have leaps and bounds to make yet, but never have I felt so content with my direction and myself. I have a wonderful family that is nothing but supportive even though I never get their pictures to them. :) Partially because they aren't paying clients, part perfectionism, and part fear since their opinions are the ones that matter most to me.
So thank you for supporting me, believing in me. I only ask for your continual input to keep me fresh and evolving.
Love you all.