So, it's really not that big a surprise that when I watch some old episodes of Glee during down time at work that I happen to lose it. Especially when they contain the saga of a teenage couple having a baby, with no money, and the mother to be getting thrown out of the house. When Finn sings to Quinn (his way of telling her parents that he knocked up their daughter...which he really didn't he's just naive and she slept with his best friend...why do I love this show so much?) I started bawling:
And then when the entire Glee club sings Lean on Me in support of the expecting couple I lost it again:
It's true. I did.
But in case you are concerned that I don't see the obvious differences in our situations, don't worry. I do comprehend that I am not a knocked up teenager. I'm a soon to be 30 year old sharing this experience with my dear husband, if not just a little earlier than we expected. I know the financial stuff will work out. I am blessed with an easy job with great insurance. Things could be so so so much worse. (Seriously parents, how did you not just have a 9 month panic attack at 19 and 21 expecting a child?) I have great family and friends. And am missing a lot of them in my life right now. I'm just a little bit of a crazy hormonal mess at the moment. Which means I cry over sappy musical sitcom dramas.
It means a lot to know that I have people to lean on.
Also, how does one not have a minor panic attack when the doctor takes forever to find the baby's heartbeat?
Also, I'm glad that we are having a baby.